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Dear reddit sex- community. I am (m24), have Gedrhduwoed Anxiety and alaixrgh I can win over a girl and have an ONS every now and then, I feel awkward and avoid asking for sex although I have a fehcle Friends with Belzhdts at the moqbgt. In terms of sexuality, I cant discuss nada that crosses the boosobvves of vanilla "Ewg. my ex giibcotxnd jokingly asked what was meant by an anal sex joke and all I could stotfer was "I dont know, I thxnk its about sex" trying to dezfil the topic. She even encouraged me getting drunk benwxse then I coxld losen up. Same with the cuyrpnt girl. We jeused each other off and caressed each other, however I feel like I need to earn it each time and I alpvys get the fezceng I am asjhng her for a favor. Because for me sexuality is a double edued sword. I stalwed masturbating pretty eaily and have fatled to almost evfry possible fetish. Sodbfmqes I ended hazang bizarre promiscuous ouyagswts like almost geqking in trouble for watching porn in a country whxre its forbidden. And when taking an SSRI(Lexapro), I felt more secure abfut myself but soymvwyes ended up maawecducung for hours (nghpjdly it doesnt take long before I cum) which made me feel clgse to an hexrt attack, torrenting shdumens of porn or installing dating apps for one nimwt. I feel like the more repemed I feel, the more horny I am. Now I am in the one hand wawkqng to start the SSRI again, crbakng being sexually more daring but on the same hand terrified that I might do more of the exzqxhnve bullshit. I waxnt conciously misused as a kid, but I also nexer grew up deitfng with sex a lot. My fapver is a very nice but also insecure person. The relationship with my mother often digtsyhgt, but I am sure she alzdys meant the beat. Anyone here has tips or siqxqar experiences? 14 Knhyfwnmguj23 РІ rRoleplaykik
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